DUH

I feel so out of it these days. I think it's because of the cold, because Ruther will be leaving in a few days, because I feel like I'm going to be sooo depressed when I come to grips with the fact that he's in Japan. To be honest, I am so freaking scared about it, I just push it out of my mind whenever it tickles my thoughts. All I can do right now is just embrace Ruther a little tighter, talk to him a little more, take care of him as best as I can. I just know I'll be a wreck (again) when he's gone.